Having heard the illuminating description of jīva-tattva in. Daśa-mūla, Vrajanātha returned home. Lying on his bed, he was unable to sleep, and he began to reflect deeply, “I have received an answer to the question, ‘Who am I?’ Now I can understand myself to be simply an atom of light in the effulgent rays of the spiritual sun, Śrī Kṛṣṇa. Although atomic by nature, I have my own inherent value, purpose, knowledge, and a drop of spiritual bliss (bindu-cidgata-ānanda). My svarūpa is a spiritual particle (cit-kaṇa). Even though that form is atomic, it is like Śrī Kṛṣṇa’s human-like form. Now, I cannot see this form; and this is my misfortune, only an extremely fortunate soul can realize it.
It is important that I understand clearly why I suffer in this unfortunate condition. Tomorrow I will inquire about this from Śrī Gurudeva.”